{"id":4537,"date":"2016-08-09T06:00:45","date_gmt":"2016-08-09T10:00:45","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.inspiredtolivefully.com\/?p=4537"},"modified":"2016-08-09T00:43:38","modified_gmt":"2016-08-09T04:43:38","slug":"mirror-mirror","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.inspiredtolivefully.com\/staging\/4119\/2016\/08\/09\/mirror-mirror\/","title":{"rendered":"Mirror, Mirror"},"content":{"rendered":"<h2>Mirror, Mirror,<\/h2>\n<h2>What do I see?<\/h2>\n<h2>I see a fat girl<\/h2>\n<h2>Looking at me.<\/h2>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<h4>\u201cYou are fat!\u201d<\/h4>\n<h4><\/h4>\n<h4>\u201cOh my gawd, you are so fat!\u201d<\/h4>\n<h4><\/h4>\n<h4>\u201cDo you see those rolls? They are just SO fat!\u201d<\/h4>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>So went my dialogue with myself.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>EV-ER-Y SINGLE TIME I walked pass a mirror, these were my thoughts.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>A torrent of hot lava flowing over my spirit leaving the ash of a charred self image in its wake.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Remember her?<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.inspiredtolivefully.com\/staging\/4119\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/IMG_0130.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-4545\" src=\"https:\/\/www.inspiredtolivefully.com\/staging\/4119\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/IMG_0130-144x300.jpg\" alt=\"IMG_0130\" width=\"144\" height=\"300\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.inspiredtolivefully.com\/staging\/4119\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/IMG_0130-144x300.jpg 144w, https:\/\/www.inspiredtolivefully.com\/staging\/4119\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/IMG_0130-600x1249.jpg 600w, https:\/\/www.inspiredtolivefully.com\/staging\/4119\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/IMG_0130-768x1599.jpg 768w, https:\/\/www.inspiredtolivefully.com\/staging\/4119\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/IMG_0130-495x1030.jpg 495w, https:\/\/www.inspiredtolivefully.com\/staging\/4119\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/IMG_0130-721x1500.jpg 721w, https:\/\/www.inspiredtolivefully.com\/staging\/4119\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/IMG_0130-339x705.jpg 339w, https:\/\/www.inspiredtolivefully.com\/staging\/4119\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/IMG_0130-scaled.jpg 1230w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 144px) 100vw, 144px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Gone was my athletic body, replaced now with my post-pregnancy body replete with bumps, lumps and rolls.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.inspiredtolivefully.com\/staging\/4119\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/IMG_0369-e1470715884615.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-4538\" src=\"https:\/\/www.inspiredtolivefully.com\/staging\/4119\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/IMG_0369-e1470715884615-225x300.jpg\" alt=\"IMG_0369\" width=\"225\" height=\"300\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.inspiredtolivefully.com\/staging\/4119\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/IMG_0369-e1470715884615-225x300.jpg 225w, https:\/\/www.inspiredtolivefully.com\/staging\/4119\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/IMG_0369-e1470715884615-768x1024.jpg 768w, https:\/\/www.inspiredtolivefully.com\/staging\/4119\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/IMG_0369-e1470715884615-773x1030.jpg 773w, https:\/\/www.inspiredtolivefully.com\/staging\/4119\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/IMG_0369-e1470715884615-1125x1500.jpg 1125w, https:\/\/www.inspiredtolivefully.com\/staging\/4119\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/IMG_0369-e1470715884615-529x705.jpg 529w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 225px) 100vw, 225px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Pre-pregnancy I was in the best physical shape in my life. I was working out 5-6 days a week. After having been pregnant or nursing for the last 13 years, this was the longest stretch I had gone between pregnancies and I felt like I finally had my body back. I fought kicking and screaming to surrender to my pregnant body. Mid-way through my pregnancy I came to love and accept my pregnant body. But post-baby was another story.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>\u201cOohhh girl, you are SO fat!\u201d<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>There I went again. But this time the Holy Spirit stopped me dead in my tracks. As I looked at myself, held in position at the mirror a moment longer, the Holy Spirit said, \u201cToxic thoughts. You speak life and encouragement to everyone else and you are speak death to yourself.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Grateful that he got my attention, I knew I had to o something about it. I had to excavate the skills I\u2019d acquired from<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.amazon.com\/Switch-Your-Brain-Happiness-Thinking\/product-reviews\/0801015707\">The 21 Day Brain Detox<\/a>. I had to take those toxic thoughts captive and replace them with the TRUTH.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>I was speaking with a friend the other day and she says she asks herself \u201cIs it true?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>For truth says:<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><strong><em>For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother&#8217;s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong><em>PSALM 139:13-15<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><strong><em>You are altogether beautiful, my love; there is no flaw in you.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong><em>Song of Solomon 4:7<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n<p><em>\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n<p>I am created in His image. You are created in His image. You are His workmanship. [bctt tweet=&#8221;You are a work of art, skillfully wrought at the hands of a Master artisan.&#8221; username=&#8221;inspiredfully&#8221;] You are beautiful, capable, and more than enough just the way you are.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>THIS IS THE TRUTH.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>And what was this preoccupation with body image anyway? I thought this was something I had resolved and put to rest. Having been heavier before, I learned to listen to the Holy Spirit as to how to honor my temple. And even though I know this is baby weight and it will most likely all disappear, I\u2019m still nervous. And even though I have gone back down to my former size after every baby (five times I\u2019ve bounced back), there is still this looming doubt, \u201cWhat if I don\u2019t lose the weight this time?\u201d I just can\u2019t bear the thought of walking around indefinitely feeling like The Stay Puft Marshmallow (ok so maybe that\u2019s a bit of an exaggeration but if you\u2019ve ever been concerned about weight you get what I\u2019m saying). Of course it doesn\u2019t help when all my old clothes are still hanging in my closet but I can\u2019t fit any of them. And there are but a handful of pieces I can fit so it can be overwhelming just to get dressed. Then don\u2019t let me stumble upon old pics in my phone because that can hurl me smack dab into a pit of self-loathing.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>What lies are trying to tap dance their way across you\u2019re your mind?<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Shatter the darkness and ditch the lies. Allow the light of truth to permeate every crack, corner and recess of your mind. Allow His light and love to course through your veins. Meditate on that which is true, lovely and praiseworthy.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>The other day, I saw a glimpse of myself, smiled and thought, \u201cYes girl, you are working it!\u201d<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>No pride. No vanity. Just a girl, loved by an awesome Father.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><strong><em>Charm is deceitful, and beauty is vain, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong><em>Proverbs 31:30<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>As always, it is my prayer that you\u2019ve been <em>Inspired To Live Fully<\/em>!<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Happy to partner with these friends sharing the Good News\u00a0<a href=\"http:\/\/www.purposefulfaith.com\">Purposeful Faith<\/a>, <a href=\"http:\/\/www.lifeoffaithblog.com\">Mommy Moments<\/a>, <a href=\"http:\/\/www.arabahjoy.com\">Grace &amp; Truth<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Mirror, Mirror, What do I see? I see a fat girl Looking at me. &nbsp; \u201cYou are fat!\u201d \u201cOh my gawd, you are so fat!\u201d \u201cDo you see those rolls? They are just SO fat!\u201d &nbsp; So went my dialogue with myself. &nbsp; EV-ER-Y SINGLE TIME I walked pass a mirror, these were my thoughts. 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